You can't make a cute girl ugly?

Well, I got the hair done but once again I am disappointed. I guess maybe the problem is that I just don't think I am all that cute and so the idea that a hair cut can't make me ugly seems false. Don't get me wrong. I know I am beautiful on the inside and I don't consider myself ugly or pretty rather just me but I am very aware of the fact that a new hair cut isn't going to make me look like I did in my 20's. So even though a new hair cut feels great it would be even better if I had the same skin I did back then and of course that I was 50 lbs skinnier too. I guess I was expecting a miracle from a hair cut. On a different note. We had a great time in California but I will have to save all the details for another post. I have lots of fun pictures too but I've got lots to do today.

We spent one whole day in L.A. at the temple doing sealings. This is where we got married. It was so fun to go back there.

We also spent an entire day at San Clemente Beach. We had many dates here back in the day.
I really like this picture of Tanner and I but do you think it is possible to photoshop my fat arms and wrinkly neck.

We also got really lucky with leftover Disneyland Tickets from Jason and Jodi. We had so much fun but actually talked about how much we would love to have had the kids with us.
Disneyland without kids just isn't the same.

What to do. What to do.

I am in desperate need of some cute hair but don't know what to do. I'm pretty sure I want to go super blond like these pictures. And I love the short hair but always chicken out. I just spent 40$ on a hair cut a couple of months ago but was totally disappointed because I was not brave enough to do something different. I totally wasted my money. Not a bad hair cut but a boring one. So I love this Alexis Stewart Haircut but since I'm still carrying a lot of baby weight I'm afraid it will look stupid. So then this Reese Witherspoon caught my eye. Like it but maybe not enough change.
I also like this one too. Thought about going red too. Maybe for the fall.

What to do. What to do. Will somebody please tell me what to do!

Prayer Changes Things

I have always had a testimony of prayer. Even when I was very small I remember having experiences with it that left a big impression on me. I will admit though that at the darkest times of my depression, I often wondered if God really did hear me. And if he was hearing me if he actually cared. I know now that he does care and he does answer. I just wasn't listening and some answers were in progress. Meaning that I think some of my answers were going to take time and careful planning so that I would be in a place to actually hear it. Anyway I just wanted to share a more current experience. This was just maybe a month ago or so. I was having just an okay kind of day. Nothing to stressful or out of the ordinary but as the day went on I was finding that I was becoming more and more irritated with the kids and all their shenanigans. I was really trying to keep my cool. It was my goal for the day and it was at the front of my mind all day that I was going to respond to the kids lovingly. Well after a full day of cleaning up messes and feeling exhausted the little girls really tested me. Just when I thought I might get a minute to rest on the couch, one of the kids came in yelling that Meridee and Aida had just painted all over the walls in blue paint. I was fuming inside and I really felt like I just wanted to blow my top but instead I thought to pray. It was short, silent, and simple. I just closed my eyes and said Help Me Lord, Please. Just as I finished the prayer and opened my eyes the most unlikely thing happened. The one kid who gives me the most grief and worry came to my rescue. Audrie walked in with a washrag in hand and said it's okay mommy I'll clean it up. Even now this brings me to tears. I was so greatful that she had the idea to help out (an idea that was inspired I'm sure). I was so happy that I had to get a picture. She had most of it cleaned up before I could find the camera but I did get a picture anyway.

WANTED

Girlfriends! Friends who have time to be Friends.
Girlfriends who like to get out to see a chick flick from
time to time.
Girlfriends who like shopping but don't necessarily have to
spend money.
Girlfriends who have time for long chats on the phone while
babies sleep.
Girlfriends who like doing craft projects together.
Girlfriends who don't mind just hanging out and chatting with a bunch of kids running around.

I've been tagged

8 Item Tag
Here are the rules:
1)Post the rules on your blog.
2)Answer the six '8' items on the tag.
3)I tag: Maren, Stacy, Elizabeth, Jill, Lindsey, Mandy, Macey, and Kim

8 Favorite TV Shows:
1. John and Kate plus 8 (but really sick of how she treats him)
2. Home Improvement
3. Divine Design
4. 24
5. Office
6. So you think you can dance
7. I Love Lucy
8. Little House on Prairie


8 Things I did Yesterday:
1. Went to the Temple
2. Blogged
3. Spent too much time on face book
4. nursed Tanner
5. Changed Tanner's Diaper
6. Wiped up Tanner's puke
7. washed laundry but never folded any of it
8. Made a terrible dinner that nobody ate

8 Things To Which I'm Looking Forward:
1. Spring
2. Danny getting a job
3. Our anniversary
4. Planning weddings for all my girls
5. Shopping for clothes after I loose weight and we have money again(I have nothing to wear right now)
6. Doing some sewing
7. Kids going to bed
8. Decorating projects (after money comes in again of course)

8 Favorite Restaurants:
1. Kneaders
2. Café Rio
3. Pei Wei
4. Los Hermanos
5.
6.
7.
8. ….? We don't eat out much

8 Things on My Wish List:
1. Live in a cute little town farther away from all the bustle
2. Traveling (so many places I want to experience)
3. Build my Dream House
4. Have two more babies( don't worry probably not going to happen. I know my limits but it is still a wish)
5. Do some ball room dancing
6. Go on a Mission with Danny
7. My kids will grow up to have have strong testimonies of the gospel and be worthy to go the temple someday.
8. That I will have lots of Grand babies someday

Sweet Treat

Do you ever have those days when you feel like you did all the right things? For me they don't happen all that often but on this particular day I felt that way. Most of you probably know that I have struggled with depression for a long time but over the past year I have found a way to move passed it. For so long I haven't really felt like myself. All the things I love just seemed so meaningless before but I have found my way back. This day I found myself feeling truly happy doing the simplest of activities with my girls. The interesting thing about it is that this small act changed my entire day. It just went smoothly all day and this one good day has turned into many good days. I have prayed for joy and happiness to come to me for a very long time and the Lord has answered that prayer in the most interesting ways. I finally feel a peace and calm that I have not felt in a long time.